In Circles.
Random Observation/Comment #234: In the Working World, weekday nights are filled with meaningless absorption of viral video content (i.e. primetime TV shows) and weekends become my time to release and work on some hobbies (i.e. writing, startup companies, and photography). It may sound like a lovely routine, but surprisingly, I’m getting exhausted. After a year of learning what I love to do with my free time, I just don’t seem to have any of it after I started working. I think I’m just spreading myself too thin while trying to get the most out of life.
This is the longest I haven’t written in my blog since I started writing about a year-and-a-half ago in Japan. This doesn’t mean I’m not happy – on the contrary, I am quite content with how things are going at work. I just wish I had more me-time. What it does mean, though, is that I’m busy.
The total 3-hour commute everyday doesn’t help – I just spend that time catching up on sleep and playing “Words with Friends” on my iPhone (I’m so freakin’ good – please challenge me). Maybe if I got an Android phone, I could write more and organize my Google-life better.
… I’m sorry, iPhone, I didn’t mean it. I’m just frustrated that I haven’t given myself the time to listen to language audio-books or used my train time to finish my book (although, I’m not sure how much motivation I have to write it anymore). I could probably use the iPhone to write blog entries or chapters on the commute and just email them to myself, but unfortunately, I feel so attached to the feel of my old laptop – it’s like the inspiration distributes to my 10 fingers, and my thumbs can’t seem to funnel all of it for typing on the iPhone. Old habits die hard, but maybe I’ll find a work-around – I guess I always find a work-around.
Anyway, I probably just want an android phone to keep me busy learning a new gadget, which wouldn’t be a bad idea to keep life interesting. I know plenty of people (myself included) who live on finding the next cool gadget in order to distract themselves from the daily grind. Not that work is difficult; the routine is just – well, a grind, compared to the life I had before.
Ah, the good ole days – cereal at lunchtime for breakfast in pajammy-jams while watching hulu and stalking status updates on facebook. A nice hour nap-time at 3PM was routine, and it was always followed by getting lost in random tech news tab-overflows. Sigh. Now all I get is cereal for breakfast at breakfast time and then coffee twice a day to keep me from sleeping at my desk. It’s a change that I expected, and I’m proud I stepped up to the plate on my productivity scale, but it seems that the things I’m being productive in are actually not things that I would do if I had my own time. I’m doing things that I don’t feel are growing me as a person in a very efficient manner, which to me means that I’m just doing stuff with a rushed deadline. It’s so sad, yet I think I’ve just joined a much larger club by entering the Working World.
Well, I guess I shouldn’t complain – and not because it’s against company policy (which I don’t think it is) – but because all the important things are still there: Health, Happiness, Hobbies, and Community (I couldn’t think of an H-word for it). Mweh, it’s not so bad.
~See Lemons Push Play
